Just enough time left today to post a couple of seasonal pictures of Pete and to wish everyone a very Happy Christmas.

I hope that everyone gets all they wish and that, even if it's only in a small way, happiness touches all of your lives.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!

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"Seize the day!" That's a phrase that I've heard used a fair amount over the last few years, but what is it about the day that you are supposed to seize? Of all things that come to mind for me when I start off on one of my mind meanders, one of the most interesting to me is the fact that I find a swell of blackness around the back of my eyes and sometimes the down gets so bad that the swell makes my eyes hurt. Figures roam freely around in the increasingly empty hallways that circle my mind and I have no idea who or what they are, or where they are going, or where they've been, or even if I care about any of those things even if there was any way that I could find out the answers or if they mattered at all. Yells echo and cries swoop around the billowing emptiness that is everything, and yet all I hear is my own soft hiss in the ear, and that is more than a little annoying but also comforting at the same time. All in all I can see that there are more than a few things that I need to focus on but when I do they all merge into one unfocused mess that just keeps getting more blurred and more messy the more I look at it, and yet when I don't look at it all it does is mock me while all the time swapping colours and form so that when I look again it is even more confusing than it was.

I can't really say exactly why for sure but I haven't been a fan of this time of year since I was about 15, I think, and now I find myself living with Niki and with Pete as well, and am sober, I keep trying to get into the spirit of it all but am finding it difficult.

Hopefully my state of mind wont put a downer on the whole thing and we will have a good time.

I don't know how much I will blog during this period, but in case I am not around much I just want to wish all of you a happy Christmas and hope that both Christmas and the New Year bring you all that you need.

This is just a quick post to say that I've started another blog on here under the name Maniacal (now at the top of my friends list), I don't know why really but I just wanted a place to vent my spleen about things that piss me off but are not necessarily directly conected to me or my life (although some of them will be).

Don't know if anyone will want to read any of the things I have to say but that's not really the point of it, although if people do read it I'd love them to let me know what they think about what I say.

See ya!

Well, here we are again then.

Not too many people seemed to pick up on my Ron Jeremy laughter moment in my last posting, but hey, thanks to those who did.

All three of us are doing alright in general. We're working our way, slowly, up to Christmas although most stuff looks like it will have to be left to the last minute because of the problems with our benefit, although they seem to be getting worked out slowly as well.

So, a little while ago my friend Mr Kelly contacted me and mentioned about a band called GMT, made up of Bernie Torme and John McCoy and Robin Guy, so I found their My Space site and have been keeping an eye on it every now and then ever since. Imagine my suprise when out of the blue they issue some gig dates and one of them was for a gig at The Standard in Walthamstow for the 14th of December. I talked to Mr Kelly last week and we decided that we were both free to go and so we went. It was great. The support band, The Racket, were really good and had some excellent songs and a good front man, the only thing that let them down was a guitarist that, although very good, just didn't seem to fit with the rest of the band and almost seemed like he couldn't be bothered when he was playing. GMT were brilliant they played a lot of songs from there new album 'Bitter & Twisted' and also some great covers, namely 'New Orleans' 'Smoke On The Water' and '(Let Me Stand Next To Your) Fire'. They put on great show despite the fact that there were only about twnety people in the place. Bernie Torme can still make the guitar talk and John McCoy is simply an amazing bass player as well as looking fantastic on stage, the drummer Robin Guy (who I must admit I don't know at all) was really great as well, and all three of them seemed to be having a real good time all the way through it. Here's a few pictures of the on stage:-

The bestest thing about it was that because there was hardly anyone there I got to meet the band afterwards and get their autographs. It was quite weird though because Bernie Torme was really quite chatty and saying hi to everyone, the drummer Robin Guy was a really nice bloke who wanted to know all about how I'd heard of the band and why I'd come to see them, but John McCoy was really timid and reserved as if he didn't want to meet anyone or talk to anyone at all, not what I expected given his stage persona. Still it was a really good night out and I enjoyed myself. If you want to know more about the band, check out their MySpace site HERE or their web site HERE

Well I think that's all from me for now, see ya.

What a day it's been. Niki went to work today and I stayed at home with Pete. All hopes of going out dashed but a large amount of wet stuff falling from the sky. Not normaly a problem, but today Pete decided that he didn't want to be put down (even when he was asleep) and that, apart from about two hours spread accross the day when he was smiley and playing, when he wasn't either sleeping or eating, he'd whine and scream at me. I think the fact that I've been feeling a bit low and also a bit below par physically as well for the last few days (and having tooth ache that comes and goes whenever it feels like) made things a bit worse and left me feeling more than a little stressed by it all. Still, that's one of the joys of being a parent I suppose

Niki seems to be doing alright, although I still wory about her not getting enough sleep and stuff.

I know I haven't been blogging as regularly as I have in the past, but lately I just haven't felt that anything that has been going on in my head or anywhere else was worth blogging about really, but today I had a great experience of mis-hearing something that made me laugh for ages and still makes me smile thinking about it, and is the reason for the title of this entry. Earlier today there was an advert on TV for the Royal Variety Performance, Pete was making a bit of a fuss so I wasn't paying that much attention to the TV (not that I would have been glued to it for info on the show anyway). Part of my mind wandered to the thought "I wonder what kind of rubbish they've got on it this year", and I noted a couple of names as I half listened. Then I stopped and stared at the TV in disbelief, as the picture revealed Jon Bon Jovi singing, I laughed out loud. I was absolutely certain that I had heard the anouncer say 'Ron Jeremy' and not 'Bon Jovi', now that would be a Royal Variety Performance I would watch The more I thought about Ron Jeremy performing live on stage for the Queen, the more funny it became, and then there was the thought about the line-up when the stars are presented to the Queen and Prince Phillip, that made me laugh even more. Lets face it it would be a million times better than what's actually on it, I know it's just a personal thing but anything with Russell Brand on it is not something I want to watch, I just can't stand him, I have a growing group of "comedians" that I switch over or off if they are on a show (unless there are other people on the show that I like enough to put up with them for) and at the moment it consists mainly of Russell Brand, Jimmy Carr, Alan Carr and Graham Norton, they're all crap as far as I'm concerned, so there!

Anyway that's my laugh and rant out of the way for today, just before I go I will leave a couple of links for anyone who doesn't know who Ron Jeremy is check out the links HERE and HERE , see ya later!