cattiva e quella lana che non si puo tingere (Italian)

I had planned so much this week and managed to do only some of it all.

Monday's counselling session was a bit of a hard one, anger and frustration and guilt and other stuff all confronted and partially dealt with, a few tears and things, and I left feeling somewhat drained but a bit happier than when I went in.

Tuesday was really good, me and Niki went to see 'A Matter Of Life And Death' at The National. I was a little surprised by the play but enjoyed it. It is not the same as the film, they have kept the basic story and changed a few things, they've added songs (all very good songs I must say) and made it a lot darker in some places. It ends up being a very different, and yet very similar, story. There is no way of compairing it to the film really as it is that different to it, whilst staying true to the films underlying feeling, so I couldn't say weither it is as good as the film because that phrase really doesn't mean anything in this case. What I will say is that of the two I still think I would rather watch the film, but the play was really good in a lot of different ways and I really enjoyed watching it and would happily watch it again anytime. We then wandered down towards the Festival Hall and saw that a band were filming a video in the skate park bit just along from the National Theater. The band were called, I have since found out via a magazine from HMV that Niki picked up, The Aliens but when we were watching them I was sure they were called The Alens because of the way it was written on the bass drum. I thought maybe it was a bit like The Ramones omly instead of everyone taking the same last name they all had the first name Alen. Anyway, we believe that the song the were singing was called 'Robot Man', this is based on the fact that the lyrics appeared to be 'I'm a robot man, I'm a robot man, I'm a robot man, I'm a robot man, I'm a robot man, oh yes, I'm a robot man', of course we could be wrongD We then had a slightly long and tiring journey home in the rush hour, but all in all I enjoyed the day out with Niki.

Wednesday seems to be a bit of a blank for me right now, not sure why all I can tell you is that I haven't felt that happy since the middle of the week and don't know exactly why. Anyway, I didn't go to the mid-wife appointment with Niki (although I kind of wish I had because, once again, she had a bad time and I'm getting a bit pissed off with these people), mainly because Becca phoned earlier on and said they were coming round. It was really nice to see Becca, Jay and Lauren in the afternoon, we had a bit of a chat and played with Lauren before they had to go and it was a nice afternoon.

Thursday's unpacking and sorting out thing kind of went out the window because I had to go to the doctors to get my repeat prescription sorted out, they said I needed to see the doctor so I had to go back later in the afternoon. So I came back home, had lunch and sat around for an hour or so and then went back. It takes about an hour for me to get to my doctors from here. By the time I got three or four bus stops from my doctors it was raining (I had gone out in trainers, leggings, T-shirt and denim shirt), and by the time I got to the bus stop where I had to get off it was falling out of the sky in buckets, then as I walked down to my doctors from the bus stop it started with the thunder and stuff. Suffice it to say I got more than a little wet, in fact the color of my denim shirt was still slightly damp at about 5pm today.

Friday morning I had a hospital appointment that I'd forgotten about, to see a specialist about my perforated eardrum. He looked at it, told me it was about the same and there wasn't anything more he could do right now and to come back in 6 months, then sent me home. What a waste of time, I could have told him that. Anyway, Scott came over in the afternoon to stay for the weekend. He seems a bit more relaxed now that his exams are over, he did the last one in the morning before coming over. We don't have a lot planned, and a lot will depend on the weather, but there is a family fun weekend in a park nearby this weekend so we might go along and have a look. Of course Niki is of to work in the morning, and it will depend on how she's feeling on Sunday as to weither we go or not then.

Not got a lot more to say right now really, feeling a bit low and have been for the last half of the week, don't know why. Still there ya go!