chuntian hai'er lian, yi tian bian san bian (Chinese)

Well now, lets step back to Wednesday and my birthday. It was a pretty good one really, I've had better but I've certainly had worse. I must say actually that it was a good day and it was proved to me, yet again, that I am surrounded by people who care both in the vertual and the physical world. I got some very nice cards, some very nice wishes from my blogging and on-line friends, and some nice presents too. Then it was back to the mundane reality of life and I went to my counselling session, luckily it was a fairly light session which was mainly about ways I can stay focused on the 'now' and not get lost inside my own head, so that wasn't too bad. When I got back home Niki had bought me a cake and so we had an Indian take-away and then chocolate cake, which was really nice.

And so, on to other things.

Niki went over to stay with her Dad for a couple of days on Thursday morning. Her brother has gone on holiday for a week and she promised her Dad she'd go over to make sure he was alright. He's not doing too badly now, considering he only has half of his right leg left, but he gets a bit fed up being on his own too much and I can totally understand that. Anyway, Niki went over for Thursday and Friday, that way she can go to work from there on Saturday which is a lot easier than getting to work from here, and she'll be back home (and no doubt very tired) on Saturday night. It's odd being here on my own, I'm finding it a bit hard to get stuff done and I'm not sure why exactly but I just seem to be a lot less organised (not that I'm very organised at the best of times now days).

I had a doctors appointment this morning, I wanted to ask him why it is that if, as their tests show, I am in very good health for someone with an inoperable heart condition who is very overweight and suffering from depression, that I feel so bloody awful sometimes. He said it's just a part of haveing the conditions that I have and apart from loosing some weight and watching what I eat and when (because some foods have a worse effect on my body and well-being than others) and also watching how much I exert myself, there is very little I can do about it. I've also been having problems with the farmers again and he's prescribed me some little bombs of comfort that should help. The funny thing was though, I was late leaving home this morning and so phoned the doctors to let them know that, although I would be late, I would be there. My doctor is quite a way from where I live as I stayed with my old doctor when I moved, mainly because one of the partners is a heart specialist. Anyway, I was really lucky with the bus connections and ended up only being 10 minutes late. I then found out that there was only one doctor on as the other two were both on holiday, and he'd had two emergencies (one of which he was still dealing with) and so I hadn't missed my appointment because he was running late. I'm not sure exactly what time I went in to see him, but it was definately later than the 9.45 time of my appointment, and I came out of the doctors at about 11.15. Oh what fun :D

I'm going to end with some comments on some bits of world news.

I think it's wonderful that the G8 leaders have stated that they will commit completely and wholeheartedly to sticking to the promises they made to help to stop poverty and sickness in the third world. I mean it was only two years ago that these promises were made and the fact that hardly anything has actually been done yet by any of them is not important because they are sticking firmly but their promises. To me these sort of politicial promises mean just as much as it does when a bloke says to a woman that he loves her just to get in her knickers, the only difference is that it's the world that getting screwed.

Nice to see that justice is being done in the world today. Paris Hilton released early from jail, George Micheal doesn't get sent to jail, where's the justice. If any of us 'normal' 'ordinary' people had commited the crimes they have we would have been sent inside and had to do our time. I'm getting so fed up of celebrities who are above the law and of the message that things like this send to young impressionable fans of these people.

OK, rant over :DD

Well, I think that's about all from me for today.
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