zig then ma che; dam choe ma ha (Dzongkha, Bhutan)
I went to my counselling session yesterday, not wanting to but knowing it was the best thing. I've been feeling more and more down recently and I know how bad it's been sometimes, so I wanted the counsellor to see how I was and maybe help me find a way out. She said that the only way out is through (wow, that sounds deeper than I thought it would). Basically I need to stay in the down and ride it through rather than try to find a way to stop it, but whilst doing that I also need to use the down to "mourn" and allow myself to feel the "loss" of all the things in my life that have changed or been effected due to my drinking, stopping drinking, and health condition. This isn't going to be easy or nice and so my postings on here may well become even more erratic and when I do post anything I'm not sure what it will be like.
If I don't do anything else I will make sure that everyone who wants to know is kept up to date with what's going on as far as Niki and the baby are concerned.
Well, that's all for now, hope to be back soon.
31/05/07 @ 08:59