I wasn't going to post again before the New Year, but ther ya go!

Let me start by saying that I really don't do the tradition New Year wishes stuff, tried it for the last 6 or 7 years and it hasn't made a great deal of difference to anything. Even this year, which has been the best for quite a while has had more than it's fair share of crap as well. On the good side I have met and fallen for Niki this year and, hopefully, things on that front at least will continue getting better next year. As for everything else, I'm not so sure.

Having said all that, I hope that the New Year brings everyone the things they wish and that 2007 is better for all of us than 2006 was, no matter how good 2006 was.

I also wanted to post this video, which is a bit better than the Thor one I posted before

Budgie

Anyway, see y'all

Firstly I hope everyone had a good Christmas and that Santa brought you all at least some of what you wanted.

Christmas here was a little more spartan than I would have liked but it was still good and we had a good time. We got some good presents, even if one was a little unexpected. All it all it was fun.

Here's a strange thing, we seem to be having a problem with flies in the house. I always wondered where they went in the winter and it seems that it might be our house. These flies, and there have been quite a few of them over the last week or so, are not your little flitty flies but big blue bottle types and it seems that everytime we get a couple in the house and I kill them, a couple more turn up, sometimes within minutes. Maybe it's some kind of supernatural thingy, or maybe there's a dead body under the bath, or maybe it's just another manifestation of the strange luck that me and Niki seem to have in our lives.

Womble is setteling in fine, she's can still be a bit of a pain in the arse at times but that's partly due to her being a puppy still and wanting to play all the time (when she isn't either asleep or eating everything), she's ok going for walks on her lead now although she hasn't learnt things like not pulling on the lead, or the whole idea of fetching things that are thrown for her when we get to the park, but she's only young I suppose.

Well, I hope everyone has a good New Year and that next year is better for us all than this year has been.

See y'all next year

Happy Christmas to you all!!!!

Here's a video for you to watch and maybe it will bring back some memories:-

BEHOLD THE HAMMER!!

See y'all later

Here we are on the run up to Christmas, a new main pic especially for the season, not as much done at home as we maybe would have liked but there you go.

It looks like Niki's Dad will be in hospital until after the New Year although he may be allowed out for Christmas Day but we'll see.

Womble is doing well, almost completely house trained now and, after some initial reluctance, going out on a lead for walks (although she seems very nervous all the time we're out and hasn't quite got the hang of playing fetch over the park) and slowly learning not to get too nippy when playing.

In general things are going pretty well-ish, so why do I still feel so crappy? I really don't understand, I hope the counselling starts quickly after the New Year and helps me to get to grips with things. Adding to my mental state, the farmers are playing up and causing me some real greif, a trip to the doctors early in the New Year is definately called for and until then lots of cream and cushions.

Over a period of time my doctors have told me that the food I have eaten all my life was too rich, too fatty and unhealthy, my question is this, if you are what you eat why have I just become too fatty and unhealthy and not rich?

Well, that's all I've got for now, I hope to post at least one more entry before Christmas, so see y'all

This is just a quick post to introduce you all to our new arrival. This is mine and Niki's new dog, Womble.

She is a puppy that we have taken from a rescue centre and she arrived at about 10ish last night. She's a Collie / Bull Terrier cross and is as soppy as hell. She's house trained-ish but she's got to get used to us and the house so for a little while we'll probably be cleaning up a bit more than usual, still never mind.

It's nice to be able to blog about something good for a change.

Events, by their very nature, happen. It is the purpose of an event to happen; it is their very reason for being. If an event does not happen then it cannot be said to truly be an event, but this does not make it a non-event, because to be deemed a ‘non-event’ the event must have happened in the first place because it is still some kind of event. Some event can been seen to be going to happen before they actually occur, or foretold (these events are events that happen regularly and are there for predictable) although this does not necessarily mean that they will actually happen because sometimes these events are replaced by other events. These, second type of events, are ones that are unexpected and can only be known about when they occur, these are the events that do more to shape our lives and being because they are often more life changing than the events that can be foretold (although there are also many exceptions to this). It is how we deal with these unexpected events that really determines our path through life, sometimes many of these events occur at the same time and we find it all too over whelming to deal with, but even at these times we can be shown a way through and sometimes by the people we expect it from the least.

I wish here to publicly declare my unconditional and undying love for my children, they are both great and mean the world to me, and I am very proud of both of them.

Niki’s dad is still in hospital and having another minor piece of surgery today. It looks like he will be in there until at least the New Year now. He’s not happy about it, and I can’t say I blame him for that, Charing Cross hospital is possibly one of the worst I’ve ever had the misfortune to go into. Don’t get me wrong I think that doctors and nurses do an amazing job given all the problems they have and the nature of the job they do but that hospital is just terrible. People around here complain about King George’s and Old Church hospitals but I think I’d rather be in either of them for a month than Charing Cross for a week. Anyway, hopefully once they’ve done this operation today things will start to improve for him and he’ll be able to leave not long into the New Year. I do worry that all the traveling and the stress of the situation is taking a lot out of Niki and am more than a little pissed of at her sister and dad because they could both make it a lot easier on her, her brother is alright but as he lives near the hospital it isn’t too much of an upheaval for him to visit regularly, which he does. Still that’s families for you.

Because of everything that’s been going on Christmas has taken a bit of a back seat for us, we’ve been trying to get some stuff done but have failed miserably. I know Niki feels bad about it but for me it’s not as big a deal, I haven't been a fan of Christmas for many years now (I've been very 'Bah Humbug' for most of my adult life) and so I don’t miss all the stuff that goes with it. It would be nice to be able to have an old style Christmas with things like I remember them from my childhood, but realistically I don’t think that’s ever going to happen for me so there’s no point in even thinking about it really.

On a slightly cheerier note I have been in contact with my sister again and we seem to have been able to patch things up a bit, it’s a start which we can hopefully build upon and move forward from the problems of the past.

I’m set to start a new round of counseling sometime in January/February; I went for an assessment interview last week and now have to wait to here from them. This will be more in depth and long term counseling than I have received before and may mean that I have to face and deal with some really big demons. It’s something that I am both looking forward to, because hopefully I will be able to find a way to move away from those things, and am also very scared of, because I don’t know exactly what will come up or how I’ll deal with it all, but it is also something that I know I have to do and I feel that I need to do it now. I will keep you all posted as to how it’s going once it starts properly.

I have no idea why but I’m going to post some links to some videos that I found before all the stuff happened and meant to post then, I don't know if any one else is going to be interested in them but I liked them, anyway here they are:-

Video 1 – One of the most bizarre songs and videos I think I’ve ever heard or seen (and those of you that know my liking of odd music know how just how odd I mean).

Video 2 – It’s amazing just how many songs you can fit to one tune.

Video 3 – I’ve seen bands in pubs that aren’t as good as these kids (actually I’d even go so far as to say I’ve been in bands that aren’t as good)

Video 4 – Some very bizarre, but interesting, animation with unfortunately a rather annoying soundtrack.

I don’t have much more to say right now, but hopefully I’ll be back blogging more regularly from now on, see y'all.