The Return.

Hi everybody, I’m back and I’d like to thank all those that left such nice comments to my last entry from the old address.

We moved in on the weekend of the 21st and everything went smoothly-ish. The only problem really being that we haven’t got room at the moment for all the stuff Niki has in her studio, but we’re going to be working on that. The house is a bit of a mess at the moment because we’re still in the process of unpacking and sorting out where everything is going, but we have the kitchen sorted so we can cook (a bit) and make coffee, the bedroom is sorted enough for us to sleep and know where our clothes are, and the living room is sorted out enough for us to watch TV and use the computer and sit down comfortably, so it’s not going too bad really.

Unfortunately I went on a bit of a downer after we’d been here for a couple of days and it all basically comes down to fear and links to my feelings of inadequacy and the screw ups I’m made in the past (at least it seems to be mainly all of that), I’m not totally out of it yet but I’m trying not to let it take over. I hate the fact that me being down makes Niki feel bad, I don’t like bringing her down and when I do it makes me feel worse because it feeds into my already problematic feelings of guilt. My ear infection is better but still not gone which is an annoyance. But apart from all that I’m fine.

First Contact.

Now here’s a strange thing, I don’t know why exactly but the first two sites I visited when we were back on line were I Am Bored and Yahoo Answers, now I don’t know if some of the analysts out there in blog-land can read anything into that but I’m a bit puzzled by it. Anyway I thought I’d just put in a couple of links to video clips on I Am Bored that I found funny. The first one is a scene from a film that I’ve loved for ages and the second one I found funny even though I know you’re not really supposed to, but what the hey.

Young Frankenstein clip

Sleepy Dog clip

I also thought I’d share with you two of the answers I left on Yahoo Answers that surprised me by their depth, feeling and meaning even though I’d written them.

In answer to the question: “Are you an optimist or a pessimist?” I wrote this:-

This is a bit complicated but sometimes I'm optimistically pessimistic (which means I look forward to everything going wrong), sometimes I'm pessimistically pessimistic (which means I don't look forward to everything going wrong but I know it will anyway), sometimes I'm pessimistically optimistic (which means that I don't look forward to everything going right but I know that it will just to annoy me), and sometimes I'm optimistically optimistic (which means I'm a complete pain and don't stop grinning at everyone).

In answer to the question: “What is the meaning of life? Why are we here?” I wrote this:-

'Life' as a thing separate from the person living it has no real meaning, it is the living of life that gives it meaning. It's not the thing that means anything it's what you do with it that defines it's meaning to you, and that meaning can be (and I believe should be) completely different for every single person alive.

Writing.

Niki and I signed up for a novel writing thing yesterday which is a bit weird and a little scary for me. You have one month (from the 1st to the 30th of November) to write a novel from scratch. It’s going to be fun (I think) and probably hard work (I’m sure) but it’s something different. If you want to know more then check out the web site for yourselves, here’s the LINK.

Other Stuff.

We went to see both of the bands Jay’s in (A13 and Black Tooth) at The Cherry Tree pub in Dagenham last Friday, it was nice to go out and see live bands (although I must say I think A13 are 100 times better that Black Tooth) but the only real problems I had was firstly the fact that it was very smokey and I’m just not used to that, and secondly the fact that my ear infection meant that certain notes that the bands played made it sound and feel to me like I had a small hand grenade going off inside my left ear, which was fun. The only other problem was coming home in the early hours of the morning through the centre of Romford, still I did catch up with a couple of people that I haven’t seen for years which was nice.

I’m of to see Lordi with Scott tomorrow night, I’m not sure exactly what that will be like but I’m game.

Anyway, I think that’s about all I can think of to write at the moment so I’m off, see y’all.