I'd like to start off by wishing everybody a happy St Gildas day.

Today is also the anniversary of the birth of Thomas Paine and the death or King George III.

I have no idea if anybody will be interested in the above facts but I just thought I'd let you all know. If you would like to know more about these things then check out the Chambers Book Of Days Web Site (I tried to put a link in but for some reason it doesn't seem to work, but the web site does).

Well, I did something amazing last night, I actually went out. My brother-in-law Chris and I went to a local Weatherspoons for dinner. It was very odd being outside at night (I haven't done that for a good few months), It was even odder being in a pub again (I haven't done that for a long time either). I don't have a problem with going into pubs, my alcohol addiction doesn't get triggered that way, the thing I was worried about was being in a place where people smoke because, somewhat strangely, since giveing up I've found that much more difficult to stop thinking about and wanting to do than drinking. It's funny but if someone had told me four years ago that one day I would be sitting in a pub drinking orange juice and soda water, having given up smoking, wondering if it would be alright to cheat on my diet and have a steak, I would probably have said "Weerghh, stuffle mingle mar fark!" mainly because I was too pissed to stand up properly let alone talk. Anyway, I had a good time and it made a really nice change, I might even do it again sometime, and next time I might even go on out on my own.

It's kind of typical that just as I decide to start getting off my arse and going out more, they start putting some good programmes on the TV. I'm begining to think that it's some kind of test, and it makes me wonder if I'm living some kind of Truman Show life where some unseen official body are deliberately putting tests in my way without me knowing about it. My god I'm getting even more paranoid!!!

Going back a little to something sort of connected to one of my problems, I can't believe that even with everything else that's happened in the world lately people in the media are still going on about Charles Kennedy being an alcoholic. The thing that really got me about that situation was the fact that everyone seemed to be adamant that he had to go (and I understand that it was supposedly more to do with the fact that he lied than his alcoholism), it amazed me that there was that kind of reaction to it. This man was the leader of the THIRD most important political party in this country and, without wanting to offend anyone, had almost NO chance of ever becoming Prime Minister and actually getting any power, but he was hounded out of office, and yet nobody seemed to be worried in the slightest when a month or so before George Bush (a recovering alcoholic and argueably the MOST powerful man on the planet) announced that he was drinking again, that was almost completely forgotten and warrented only a casual mention on a few TV programmes. I don't think I understand.

MUSIC

Unfortunately, due to the ammount of problems with the bandwidth on my storage site I'm not going to be posting any more MP3's for a while. I will be trying to sort out some way of getting better storage with a larger bandwidth, but for the moment it's better if I stop. If you want to find a good selection of downloadable music try The Hype Machine Web Site
I use it quite a lot and there are some really good blogs that you can link to for music.

I do have a full list of the MP3's that I have and if anyone wants to e-mail me I can send it to them and then I can either e-mail MP3's you want direct to you or we can sort out some way of saving them to disc and sending them to you (all free of charge of course).

Anyway, I'm off to do the washing up (left from yesterday lunchtime, oh, god what a slob...lol) and have a shave. See y'all.